Most the time I usually wander around in a general malaise of middling self esteem. Just something that comes with having next to no mental self image of myself. No, really. When I think of myself, the image isn't really visual, but is mostly a mess of vague emotions instead. I have to think hard to visualize my own face.
I kind of drift through life, going with the flow, being vague and indecisive, avoiding confrontation.
It's therefore pleasantly refreshing to be reminded that I can grow an instant backbone when a challenging social situation arises. I can be stubborn even.